Epiphany, a Couple of Weeks Late

  • Posted by: margaret
Beatrice and Charlotte embrace their eye pillows
Beatrice and Charlotte embrace their eye pillows

As Karl mentioned in an earlier post, I spent the end of December and the beginning of January laid low by pneumonia. I’m generally pretty healthy–rarely under the weather, much less incapacitated by fever and racking cough–and the experience was jarring. I’m an active person, and it was strange to be sedentary. Family and friends pitched in so that I could lie in bed, sleeping, drinking tea and reading Batya Gur‘s mystery novels. Except for the coughing and sweating and weird, fizzy sound of my breathing, it was kind of a treat at first. After the third day, however, I was frustrated and ready to be productive again. My body had to stay in bed for another week and a half, but my mind wandered, and around the Feast of the Epiphany (January 6), I had one: I’m simply not very good at resting. I’m good at sleeping, but between the humans and the critters and the various projects I take on, sleep is usually just a nightly collapse, not a mindful, restorative pause. I’m determined, in this new year, to change that.

To that end, I’m beginning 2010 with a resolution to make time for more: more rest, more quiet, more of all kinds of things that bring me pleasure and a sense of balance. These aren’t the big things–our family has already made the choice to slow down and nurture each other and our little patch of earth. Rather, these are the small details that are pressed so far into the margins that they often fall off the page.

I’ve been writing down the things that I want to put more energy into, and I welcome suggestions, especially if there’s something that’s helped bring balance to you. Here’s what I have so far:

Margaret’s List of More

Scuba diving
Yerba mate
Regular practice of yoga
Fresh fruit
Eye pillows
Hot cocoa
Watching the sun rise
Meals eaten al fresco
Cut flowers
Mindful breathing
Author: margaret